So we sit at this table, with our hands in our laps.

I came here to find You.

I came to praise You.

I came to connect with You.

And you brought him here.

The one thing that keeps me from You.

You let him come and tear my heart out one more time.

You let him control my thoughts.

You let him manipulate my emotions.

You let him feed my anxiety.

You let him bring my tears.

Why would I trust in You, when You allow my heart to break?

Why would I follow You, when You let in the serpent?

You claim to take my chains and yet You condone me to them.

I want out. I did not decide to trust in You to allow myself to get hurt.

I came with empty hands searching for what could fill.

I came with a broken heart looking for what could heal.

And You have led me back to only what leaves me empty and breaks me once more.