You can have all of this world, but give me Jesus.

I need Jesus.

I need You right now and from here on out.

The only things I have passion for are the aligning of Your will in my life and the saving of souls.

I want to be motivated.

I want to care for something.

I want You to move me.

I'm letting go of all else.

This is your life, are you who you want to be?

I am continually thinking about what used to be.

On this night two years ago, which really seems like only the day before yesterday, I was probably drunk.

I had not met him. I had not yet met Him.

I had a heart of stone that was chiseled into a representation of beautiful.

On this night one year ago, which really seems like only yesterday, I was probably broken.

I had met and loved him. I had met and loved Him.

My heart of stone had been removed and replaced with something beautiful.

I looked back at writing from almost one year ago and realized how different I am and yet how very similar I am. I still want to be used in His love, but in such a different capacity.

Lead me today so that one year from now, I will see how far You have brought me evermore.

And the world spins madly on.

I find it so hard to be motivated.

My life has become one big to-do list and every moment of my day is micromanaged.

I need an escape.

I need a release and almost always I use words, but they are no longer working.

I cling to the solitary silence I sit in as I type, but it is overcome with the screaming remains of today's unfinished list.

I want to run away.

My heart aches for those with special needs.

Breaks and breaks for them.

Yet my program of study, which I am in so that I can engage in this very subject, teaches me nothing.

I am exhausted.

I am tired of working so hard.

I am tired of coming home and seeing my roommates on the couch enjoying themselves.

I am weary and burdened.

I am burnt out.

I need rest.

I want to throw away all of my lists.

I want to shirk my responsibilities.

I want to run.

I do not want to look back.

I want to be so far gone, with my heart so enveloped in my passions that they cannot pull me back.

I want to love with the capacity I have been given.

I am tired of waiting here.