Monday, November 30, 2009

You make everything glorious and I am Yours. What does that make me?

Is it from a mirror we determine our beauty?
Is affirmation from others where we find our self worth?
There are days when I deeply struggle with what makes me beautiful. As I wrestle with the question I think of all the things I need to change, everything I need to work on. The more I think of what makes me less beautiful, the more ugly I feel. Girls struggle with these thoughts all the time, to the point that it brings them to bulimia, shame, depression or anxiety. 
We feel trapped in disparity. We feel hopeless in our ambitions. 
We look in our mirror for confirmation. 
We hang from the words of a loved one for our identity.
And then, we use and abuse all the things provided for our good. We are promised to always have enough food, yet we eat too much or none at all. We are told of the beauty of sex and we give it to boys who say our surface is beautiful.
But what defines our beauty on the inside?
Where does our loveliness reside?
In what do our souls rest?
There is perfect joy and peace in something bigger. Immense satisfaction from His spirit. He has promised us more than we could ever need and once we embrace that, truly embrace it, and set our worth in that alone; we are beautiful.
We really are.
No one can take away a love that radiates from within. When your beauty is lit from the inside, it reflects to the outside. In the same way, trying to shine beauty from the outside inward will never fill up all the spaces with light. We cannot be full from it. It will inevitably fail us. There are only so many pounds you can lose before you wither away, only so many boys you can be with until none desire you.
His love though, is eternal. It is never fleeting. It never fails to provide us with all we need. 
So skip the scale. Break the mirror. Button your shirt.
They will not make you beautiful. 
Walk with the confidence that when you accept His love, you radiate His beauty. 

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